Anticipation

Of Lauren coming home tomorrow night.

Of experiencing the holidays mostly as a spectator, but there is a buzz watching people walk, and families shop, kids excited or cranky, lines everywhere, stores open late and all that. The pleasure of finding just the right gift for a person...like a $6 Farmers Almanac to send to the old friend who lives in rural New Mexico.

Of a new year. Maybe it is the darkness of the time, but I'm always more aware of the people who are no longer here at New Year. Getting a year older on my birthday is not the same. Part of that comes from all the TV shows that run clips on famous people who died in the last year.

Of a new year. I will lose some weight. I will blog more. I will get my bill paying shit together and quit losing the mail all over the house.....ha ha! I will go on a long motorcycle ride, but probably after I go to Europe and climb the Eiffel Tower!